OCTOBER BLUE MOON UPDATE
How are we feeling after this moon? You know what it feels like for me - it’s like when I have about 16 open parallel loops of thought, trying to channel or get a story out, and somehow my guidance system lets my conscious mind bring them allllll back around at the same time. Think of these loops as separate karmic engagements within our own lives that are finally coming to be laid to rest. They may have been interconnected, they may have arisen at different points, but the cycles of the last 18 months have given us a lot of insight, through repetition, into who we no longer want to be. Collective karmas are also coming to a head. I hope everyone is being super gentle with themselves and finding little moments of rest and peace. This post is for the people who are not having a good time. For whatever cause of the issues in your life right now, try to speak of it in the affirmative, solution-focused, diametric : you are not sick; you’re healing.. you are not lonely; you’re opening to new connections.. you are not broke.. you’re learning to be resourceful and cultivate stability from WITHIN to draw more external resources towards you… Though the former MAY ALSO BE TRUE in any case, the opposite too will always be, if we so choose to let that be the dominant narrative. Some things are too painful to look at or acknowledge. It is in our human nature to seek pleasure and avoid pain. But sometimes, you can’t really look away anymore. And through the full-felt-understanding of the darkness that our souls find so viscerally repugnant, do we even develop a need to transcend that state at all. When the need emerges, so too does the ability. But sometimes we do not feel this. The butterfly earns its strength to fly by prying its way out of the cocoon by itself. Not because it is forgotten by God or the Universe, fated to struggle alone, but because it IS an expression of this loving energy that people call God, acting through nature and demonstrating its resilience through state changes and metamorphosis. You ARE the answer. The energy. The choice. When the need to evolve is present, we sometimes forget that this means inherently that the ABILITY is too. Even if we haven’t seen ourselves DO IT - maybe ever, but maybe also just “like this.” The “not knowing” is part of it. Once we “do,” we will know. That’s the point! Next question would naturally then be: when I can’t see the road ahead, how do I start doing anything at all? Or what if the obstacle is so immovable that any small motion I make means nothing? The answers and the path will ALWAYS be located with the most love-based, loving, heart-led option. This is why, if we have lived lives for other people and denied ourselves, we start to realize that the way forward is by going back in time and helping ourselves release blocks from long ago. They were never ours to carry. We may not get to that point right away. We may try to fix things, externally, first, still caught in an illusion that by doing that we might fix the inner world, too. But it always comes back to self. I believe, with this eclipse cycle closing out, there are many things detangling once and for all. That is not the most comfy. But it is a BLESSING.
The way to light and embodied peace is through the darkest times.
Somehow we find a route.
A map.
It can come through the voice of others, something you remember a loved one saying from long ago, the sunshine hitting your face for the first time in awhile, witnessing joy in another even if you or it feels far away…. No matter how big the obstacle
Even a pin prick sized drop of love will displace the heaviness. The pin prick opens space for more to come in. (And to a skeptic who resists that, I would ask them to consider how a single seed of negativity can quickly spiral into more and more and more - we are good at this form of escalation because it is unfortunately taught. But it can be reversed into the positive amplification of small things TOO.
The energy motion is similar but requires more mindfulness in the beginning). Through this, it doesn’t matter WHAT you’re facing. It is the inevitable journey we go on to remember that life is not meant to be lived to attain anything specific- least of all perfection. Human being, not human doing.
There is nothing you could ever have or be that will protect you from loss, heartache, fear. There is equally nothing that can take away your ability to smile and connect to peace. It’s not about fixing. It’s about noticing and allowing. The more we notice and allow, the more we see the road cleared without having to force motion from ourselves, or the pace within our lives. This makes me think of the conversations I was having in Italy, where we discussed suffering as a -if not THEE- key ingredient to making powerful art. I pray that everyone who is going through the dark can believe that it’s not because they deserve it or they’ve done this all to themselves - and also not because they’re free of divine judgment - but we only get there when we’re ready to get somewhere BEYOND that state. It is not a punishment .. it’s an invitation. The human experience has been tampered with so massively that in avoiding our pain to pursue our pleasure, we are constantly validated, enabled and corralled into further complacency that dissevers the truth of abundance from our consciousness. It is not about materiality… It will never be about materiality. The only reason people want more money is because they think they’ll be able to get something that they don’t currently have. And underneath all of that, what they really want is security, safety, acceptance, and love. We can give that to ourselves today, exactly as we are now, with exactly what we have. We can give that to other people just by being a safe person ourselves.
Love ❤️ you ❤️ be well ❤️
